Don't force yourself to put yourself in a false situation if that's not how you feel - use honesty. You will be forced to keep to a pace set by those around you, but you will be fine. Feeling useful will energize you.
Remembering the past means not daring to advance towards the future. Refresh your ideas, you will feel better.
A delay of a few months will be necessary to achieve the expected results, be patient.
Despite sharpening your weapons in the dark, you'll do a good job. It's time for you to specialize.
You will be attracted by the pleasures of Eros. Don't try to suppress your instincts at any cost, you would regret it. Nothing is standing in the way of your life path. Arrive before the rest of the people.