Don't force yourself into a role that is wrong for you. Your authenticity is your best asset. You save your energy to good effect and it would be a good idea to get rid of stress by exercising.
Get closer to the warmth of your home and family, real friends and your roots. This will counterbalance your fantasies.
There are long-term professional growth opportunities at your fingertips.
Analyze your need for perfection in relation to yourself without looking at others. To err is human.
Your partner's powers of persuasion will give you great satisfaction. You will feel more comfortable outside the routine and you need to get away from it.