Reassess the situation differently and don't keep silent about what you want. You need to assert yourself. Psychologically, you are at your best! Resuming some non-physical leisure activity would be a good choice.
Beware of Egocentrism. Relax before thinking about serious issues.
Negative feelings should be overcome and used only as a lesson. Don't let them influence you.
Relationship turmoil is upsetting you and holding back your effectiveness. Isolate yourself if you want to persevere.
The intensity of your emotions makes you think that this is not reciprocal. You are not wrong. Pay attention to facts and not just vague impressions.