It would be good for you to relax and listen to your basic needs more, without a misplaced sense of pride. You should sleep more.
There is no point in asking you to make a huge effort these days. You have only one wish, to enjoy life.
You're going to have trouble focusing on your bills, you'll need to stop and think before proceeding.
You will have an opportunity to specialize more. Don't let this opportunity pass you by.
Don't dwell on dark thoughts at the moment. Your frustrations can turn into constructive hopes if you get your emotions under control. Attunement with your partner will appear automatically!