You are overwhelmed by all kinds of projects. A choice seems to be difficult, take your time before coming to a decision. Stress is giving you various gastric problems. Try to stay calm above all.
You run the risk of being disappointed if you want to help those who don't want to be helped. it's your choice
Negative feelings should be overcome and used only as a lesson. Don't let them influence you.
You will be able to use your convictions to convince your co-workers and your enthusiasm will infect the people around you.
It's not time to dream. It's time to build and you're aware of it. However, make sure you don't lose sight of your dreams, as they are the foundation of what you want to build on.