It seems that fate is giving you a helping hand with your hopes and expectations. It would be a good idea to discard certain habits, cut down on the amount of sugar.
If you walk in the right direction, you can take the first step towards achieving your goal. it's worth the investment.
Expect a full day of changes to your plans. Don't be so inflexible.
Don't walk in different directions; be stubborn, but not to the point of exhausting yourself doing so many things at once.
There's no point in screwing up something stable to show a fleeting sliver of self-confidence. It's time for you to put yourself under the microscope.