If you are looking to change your lifestyle, doors are opening in the right direction, so forget your hesitations. The best way to feel more comfortable with yourself is to get some physical activity, so start getting some exercise.
You are coming to the end of a cycle, it is time to end once and for all the administrative work that has been left aside.
If you move, your actions will be crowned with success, no doubt about it, but lack of motivation can hold you back.
Don't be so hard on your colleagues. There are some things you have to do yourself.
Power struggles never end in love... Don't forget. It would be nice to let go of certain fears, they are unfounded and make you miss a lot of opportunities.