There's a lot going on around you, don't get distracted. Your desires conform to reality. What is missing is to practice a little sport.
Your emotions are heightened. It would be a good idea to explore and find out the real cause of this.
Your creativity will favor you and will be your greatest stimulus to push your plans forward.
With a little patience, you'll be getting more accepted on your team, but it takes time.
If you think too much, you risk missing out on the best opportunities. Why do you ask so many questions? Unnecessary doubts are getting in your way.