Don't force yourself to put up a false front if that's not how you feel - tell the truth. You will be forced to keep to a pace set by those around you, but you will be fine. Feeling useful will energize you.
Your thoughts are getting deeper. it's time to focus and do what really matters.
You will be inspired enough to make a concession. Share your views on the organization.
You will be able to breathe fresh air at work, especially if you are self-employed.
Your love life is moving forward at a calm and slow pace... This will allow you to redirect your focus to yourself and focus on your plans. Take stock of the practical details.